Nona Pemilik Semangkuk Bir

to love is to smile. to love is to cry. to love is to feeling happy.  to love is to feeling upset. at first with all these buttefly inside your stomach. you look at the world as it perfect. you look at the world like it ignited with fireworks. then: the world turns dark. than the world is become silent. you feel deserted and isolated. you feel like you are down. you fall at your lowest. down to your knees. found yourself begging and praying and hurting. we all seek for a solution to ease this. in a religion view: god is testing you. god tells you to comeback, comeback into god. in a melancholist view: you have to cry it all out. darling ,yes what they said are all could be true. darling before all of that, stand up on your feet first than pray than cry. and pray again and again and again and again and again ..... than do whatever you can do to ease your pain. in a good way. darling me and you, we have to remember this: before we cling in...

aku ingin tenggelam di dalam ruang di antara kedua lenganmu kekasih. menyelami makna di balik senyumanmu. mengerti apa arti kebisuanmu. aku ingin lebih memahamimu. dan maukah kau belajar untuk memahamiku? maukah kau berproses bersamaku? mari kekasih, bersama duduk diantara rimbunnya dedaunan beringin yang bergantungan ; atau sekedar bercakap dalam sunyinya lembah merapi. berdua, meminum kopi stasiun tugu sembari berbincang hal-hal kecil dan menggenggammu erat. kekasih:  kita dua jiwa yang kadang butuh pertengkaran kecil dan besar untuk memahami. kita dua jiwa yang saling berdoa; dalam diam, dalam tangis, dalam amarah. ingin kukecup jiwamu. ingin kuraba dan kusentuh dalam celah  diantara dua bibirmu. memagut bibirmu dalam kesyahduan yang sendu. untuk menemukan makna dibalik; manisnya gelak tawamu - getirnya ucap kecewamu - sedihnya kisah kisah kehidupanmu. kekasih: kekeliruan - kegelisahan- kegetiran yang pernah kubuat hadir...

1. jika seseorang berkata kasar atau berbuat kasar kepadamu. kamu berhak marah.kamu berhak atas sesuatu yang lebih baik, kamu pantas dihargai. 2. jika kamu sedih, kamu berhak menangis. jika seseorang pria tidak mampu mendengar tangismu dan mengeluhkan tangismu. dia bukan segalanya. 3. saat kamu sedih, marah. ungkapkan lewat tangis, lewat kata, lewat tulisan. rasa sakit memang perlu dikeluarkan, bukan dipendam. 4. kadang kamu melakukan hal konyol, walaupun dunia memandangmu rendah. tertawakan sikapmu sendiri dan tersenyum. 5. setiap satu kata buruk, balas dengan 10 kata pujian. 6. dunia memang kejam, tapi kita berdiri di atasnya.tegakkan kepalamu -- things i keep repeat in my mind, whenever i feel down -- m.r.l // 3.3.2016 11:20 am W.I.B//

if we being cautious.being impetuous.then we'll be hurt. if we want to keep alive,we have to move forward no matter how hard the road is.no matter how deep the scars they left.if we doesnt live we'll die anyway soon kid.we believe in what people tell us to,we live the way they want us to.we forget to love ourself,love our soul.we're selling what we call our pride.if everything works the way they want,maybe we have to look deep inside.do our soul live freely? or we kept inside the invisble cage.they may mocking us,telling us how they want us to shape.but our sould needs a food.a food called freedom.freedom that lead us to good choices.to good decision.to a good place then. to happiness.not the one in the fairy tale.but in real life. the conclusion is: cry loud,laugh loud,live in this full of drama, f**kdam*sh*t and cruel world.love yourself if you can. if it doesnt work just laugh at this stupid life god has made us to  live for.no matter how hard it is. find that so calle...

dear f i know what it is i know it from the first time i saw you but it too hurts tears that i have and fake smile that i made the reason for the tearsdrop on my guitar the song i keep singing on my way home the view that i see when i drive my car alone its you did you know what i feel when you pass me on the coridor? you know i love you  #30harimenulissuratcinta, day #10,  10 feb 2014

to: objek rinduku yang selalu sama another silent monday morning its been a long long day to see how the nights get colds and darks summer goes and winter comes distance between us so far far away far far away sit and watch daylight becomes darkness sun changes into moon i write this poem for you as real as my tears that run off my face as real as my tears that call you distance between us far far away and i hope the wind tell you how it hurts can i see you at the end of this long way road? your love, the one who always think about you #30 hari menulis surat cinta, day #8, 8 feb 2014

Dear beloved lover , let me say a few things . I want to hold you , while lying on pasture that has a distinctive smell after the rain. So when we have kids they will enjoy the same thing . I wish we had a house with many windows. When we have children they will be able to stick they head out to enjoy the bright sun aand the warm wind . I wish we had a bed with lots of pillows. When we have children they will be able to do a pillow fight as we often do . If you have to sail in the ocean. I will ride the boat. Because I believe in you. I would wake up and see the face of yours. Either face that looks not asleep last night  or sleeping face all night . I will smile at you in the houses with lots of windows . I 'll hold your hand , until the skin becomes red . I will hold you , tightly . Skin meets skin , eye to eye . I don't want to be shouted at you , just like our crazy neighbors. I'm not going to yell to you just because of dirty laundry or dirty...

he sleep on my pillow i see vision where the space blow and it all collision i hold his hand we running into meadowland fast enough so we wouldnt collide i tried to keep us hide pray to stop the time and look up high tried to climbed and took strength suddenly i wake and look into my side silently not make him awake hold a breath for long time speak to myself: "my dear i wont lose you"

putih-merah selamat pagi mama, "mama. beta mau ke sekolah." - kecup pipi ibu, cium tangan selamat malam mama, "mama, beta mau tidur bacakan dongeng" - mama kecup pipi. i love you mom _________________________________________________________________________________ putih-biru selamat pagi mama, "mama, beta mau pi skolah, siang les" - kecup pipi mama. selamat malam mama, "mama beta mau tidur, selimutin beta kaki mama"- mama kecup pipi. i love you mom, mama mulai bawel _________________________________________________________________________________ putih-abu selamat pagi mama, "mama, beta siang mau pi deng tamang, mama seng usah jemput jemput"  - kecup pipi mama. terburu-buru selamat malam mama, "mama beta mau tidur, tadi tamang ada acara jadi beta pulang agak malam" - berbalik dari mama mama bawel _________________________________________________________________________________ kemeja - jeans ...

have you ever? see a sea without water a sky without clouds, sun a rain without a raindrops thats how i wake up without you and your love

hujan itu #kode , #kamuflase bisa-bisanya dia secara samar tapi jelas bilang kalau saat ini (1) sebagian orang yang merasakannya sedang mengingat-ingat rasanya pernah dipeluk seseorang dengan hangat (2) sebagian orang lagi sedang mengingat-ingat pernah berbasah-basah, atau membasah-basahi diri supaya kekasihnya sedia membuka pintu rumah & hati (3) sebagian lagi yang merasakan juga hujan, sedang memikirkan kekasihnya yang jauh, yang andai sekarang kekasihnya ada di sampingnya, tentu hujan tak dingin tapi hangat (4) hujan jg meng - #kode bahwa disaat kita bernyaman-nyaman dengan selimut sebagian orang berusaha menyamankan diri dengan kardus bekas (5) hujan jg meng - #kode ada orang yang sedang di motor berharap ada yang dibonceng dan bersama-sama kehujanan dan dia bisa dipeluk agar hangat (6) hujan jg meng- #kode : bahwa ada org yang duduk di samping pria yang menyetir mobil tapi malah berharap yang menyetirkan dia adalah orang yang biasa ditemuinya diam-diam ...

 8 Desember 2011 pukul 23:25 · I know what long distance meant/You're close to my heart but too far for my hand to reach. I know what long distance meant/You're close to my heart but i only hear your voice on a night call. I know what long distance meant/You're close to my heart but only your picture on the phone all i could see. I know what long distance meant/You're close to my heart but when i call you all i hear is silence in my room. I know what long distance meant/Much more than this and its you. I know what long distance meant/ And im afraid/ That someday it  doesnt meant you close to my heart anymore and turn into t it's you're not close to my heart.. - your's - 8.12.11 taken from my old notes, sorry a little bit kinda so cry little baby :)