Nona Pemilik Semangkuk Bir

to love is to smile. to love is to cry. to love is to feeling happy.  to love is to feeling upset. at first with all these buttefly inside your stomach. you look at the world as it perfect. you look at the world like it ignited with fireworks. then: the world turns dark. than the world is become silent. you feel deserted and isolated. you feel like you are down. you fall at your lowest. down to your knees. found yourself begging and praying and hurting. we all seek for a solution to ease this. in a religion view: god is testing you. god tells you to comeback, comeback into god. in a melancholist view: you have to cry it all out. darling ,yes what they said are all could be true. darling before all of that, stand up on your feet first than pray than cry. and pray again and again and again and again and again ..... than do whatever you can do to ease your pain. in a good way. darling me and you, we have to remember this: before we cling in...

aku ingin tenggelam di dalam ruang di antara kedua lenganmu kekasih. menyelami makna di balik senyumanmu. mengerti apa arti kebisuanmu. aku ingin lebih memahamimu. dan maukah kau belajar untuk memahamiku? maukah kau berproses bersamaku? mari kekasih, bersama duduk diantara rimbunnya dedaunan beringin yang bergantungan ; atau sekedar bercakap dalam sunyinya lembah merapi. berdua, meminum kopi stasiun tugu sembari berbincang hal-hal kecil dan menggenggammu erat. kekasih:  kita dua jiwa yang kadang butuh pertengkaran kecil dan besar untuk memahami. kita dua jiwa yang saling berdoa; dalam diam, dalam tangis, dalam amarah. ingin kukecup jiwamu. ingin kuraba dan kusentuh dalam celah  diantara dua bibirmu. memagut bibirmu dalam kesyahduan yang sendu. untuk menemukan makna dibalik; manisnya gelak tawamu - getirnya ucap kecewamu - sedihnya kisah kisah kehidupanmu. kekasih: kekeliruan - kegelisahan- kegetiran yang pernah kubuat hadir...

 8 Desember 2011 pukul 23:25 · I know what long distance meant/You're close to my heart but too far for my hand to reach. I know what long distance meant/You're close to my heart but i only hear your voice on a night call. I know what long distance meant/You're close to my heart but only your picture on the phone all i could see. I know what long distance meant/You're close to my heart but when i call you all i hear is silence in my room. I know what long distance meant/Much more than this and its you. I know what long distance meant/ And im afraid/ That someday it  doesnt meant you close to my heart anymore and turn into t it's you're not close to my heart.. - your's - 8.12.11 taken from my old notes, sorry a little bit kinda so cry little baby :)