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i am kind of people that overthinking.when it comes to feeling, i sometimes misjudge people.life sometimes was and can be really hard when you are the one who making decision bout your life.when you tell stories to people they say you are a crybaby.when you keep it to yourself that you are an introvert.when you making joke about your life and all the shitty thing happens,people laugh at you. well it aint a problem or problems thou.life sure sometimes could be really hard.but i dont care.i laugh i cry when i want, i shout when i want,i disapointed even angry whenever i feel it has to.even if theres no one around to comfort me or making jokes saying that word: baper. i dont care.im a human.i have feelings.i really need to bring my feelings (also logic) everywhere,everytime.that makes me human. feel free to say im baper or galau.i dont care.i own my heart.im the queen of my life.i rule it and im living it. this is my digital public book.i can write anything,you can read me but you

akhir-akhir ini berintrospeksi. i was in this situation,one of my friends told me that 'kamu itu klo ngomong suka nyakitin' and then suddenly i changed, i try to speak really careful with my words. that was yesterday. and now that this happen... a few of my friends spoke to me, and joking about my feelings.they say cruel things and rude things to me. i'm being patient.but at one point i shed tears.still not telling them anything. but one moment.i say to one of them.stop  saying bad words and he just laugh like my words are nothing.honestly i feel like i'm a moron. and then i realize.i deserve to be treat humanly,like a goddess, i didnt do anything wrong, even if i do wrong.i know how to apologize. people nowadays really dont know how to say sorry.they make someone feeling as a joke.they like to point others for what they did. and you.yes you.you have no manner.next time please learn to be honest and stop laughing at your mistakes that hurt others.be a gentle

Resah malam ini, hela nafas  menunggu pagi. Entah apa di otak-otak para seniman jalanan mereka tiada berhenti bernyanyi mengiringi hingga tiba pagi. Zaman bergerak berubah sepertinya, diiringi senandung-senandung kecil mereka menggambar cerita. Adalah samanya dengan jingga,dia selalu tampak berbeda. Mega si mendung nampak lelah. Oh,apa karena hujan kemarin tak henti turun membasahi bumi. Nona manis duduk bersandar di jendela. Yang dia temukan bajingan-bajingan menari di langit malam,menggantikan bintang,sebagian dari rindu yang tak tergapai. [catatan kecil diujung senja] untukku: #yang indah seakan sempurna.namun bukan untuk dimiliki...    untukmu:                                 ~Daun yang jatuh tak pernah membenci angin, dia membiarkan dirinya jatuh begitu saja. Tak melawan, mengikhlaskan semuanya. Bahwa hidup harus menerima, penerimaan yang indah. Bahwa hidup harus mengerti, pengertian yang benar. Bahwa hidup harus memahami, pemahaman yang tulus.

1. jika seseorang berkata kasar atau berbuat kasar kepadamu. kamu berhak marah.kamu berhak atas sesuatu yang lebih baik, kamu pantas dihargai. 2. jika kamu sedih, kamu berhak menangis. jika seseorang pria tidak mampu mendengar tangismu dan mengeluhkan tangismu. dia bukan segalanya. 3. saat kamu sedih, marah. ungkapkan lewat tangis, lewat kata, lewat tulisan. rasa sakit memang perlu dikeluarkan, bukan dipendam. 4. kadang kamu melakukan hal konyol, walaupun dunia memandangmu rendah. tertawakan sikapmu sendiri dan tersenyum. 5. setiap satu kata buruk, balas dengan 10 kata pujian. 6. dunia memang kejam, tapi kita berdiri di atasnya.tegakkan kepalamu -- things i keep repeat in my mind, whenever i feel down -- m.r.l // 3.3.2016 11:20 am W.I.B//