Sunday, June 16, 2013

Like our life explode, my life


- 11 Juni 2011 pukul 2:29 -

It's hard when people wanna beat you
down.
People say mean things when they talk to you, to me.
People missunderstood you when they look at you, at me.

They mistreated you.
They misplaced you.

They don't like you.
They don't like me.

They hate you.
They hate me.

We exchange ourself every time.
We want to be what they want us to be.
We not be what us want to be.

and it's all like our life explode,
my life..

Why if they don't like my style? my hair? my face?
Why i have to turn back and be like them?

No, stop it.
Enough,
i done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
I try too hard, too be perfect.

So what?! i just want to be me.
To see me perfect the way i am.
Don't care what they say.
Don't care what they do.
Cause this is my life, i'm never let them bring me down.
I always be still around.
Look at me.

*saa



siapa yang berani berkorban?

siapa sih yang ga takut pengorbanan?

yakin kamu ga takut?
kalau saya jujur selalu merinding membahas pengorbanan. buat yang setuju mungkin saat membaca ini kamu lagi anggukin kepala.
yang bikin ketakutan itu adalah bahwa penyesalan dan pengorbanan punya titik temu yang sama: kehilangan.

pernah ga sih kamu ngerasa takut akan kehilangan hal yang kamu cinta atau orang yang kamu cinta.
dan itulah hal yang menakutkan buat saya.


dan ketika saya dalam titik nadir itu every little things just seems like could hurt me so bad.

its a hell, ketika mikirin akan kehilangan, ide akan pengorbanan seringkali ada dalam pikiran tapi bukan hal yag mudah mengubah 'kata menjadi nyata'.


buat sebagian orang kehilangan itu lah pengorbanan.

tapi mana yang lebih baik mempertahankan sesuatu yang dicintai atau berkorban untuk tidak lagi mempertahankan demi sesuatu yang dicintai?

-16 Juni 2013-