Saturday, January 23, 2016

di antara - - -

aku ada di antara jendela-jendela.
udara pertama yang ada saat dia buka lebar-lebar.

aku ada di antara pintu-pintu.
cahaya pertawa yang lewati sisi-sisinya.

aku ada di antara rerumputan-rerumputan.
gemerisik lembut membelai jari-jarinya.

aku dan dia.
berpapasan di antara-antara.


doaku: dia.


Tuesday, January 19, 2016

how do i live my life.should be like

if we being cautious.being impetuous.then we'll be hurt. if we want to keep alive,we have to move forward no matter how hard the road is.no matter how deep the scars they left.if we doesnt live we'll die anyway soon kid.we believe in what people tell us to,we live the way they want us to.we forget to love ourself,love our soul.we're selling what we call our pride.if everything works the way they want,maybe we have to look deep inside.do our soul live freely? or we kept inside the invisble cage.they may mocking us,telling us how they want us to shape.but our sould needs a food.a food called freedom.freedom that lead us to good choices.to good decision.to a good place then. to happiness.not the one in the fairy tale.but in real life.

the conclusion is: cry loud,laugh loud,live in this full of drama, f**kdam*sh*t and cruel world.love yourself if you can. if it doesnt work just laugh at this stupid life god has made us to  live for.no matter how hard it is. find that so called inner peace as how you see kid.


~ as my heart said #noted

Monday, January 18, 2016

tanpa apa apa

Bagi apa apa yang dikenal rasa.tolong jangan perkenalkan apa yang kau sebut asa.bukan dia ingin jiwa.mungkin hanya butuh langkah-langkah apa yang bisa dia punya.





Jangan tanya apa itu kisah
Mungkin yang dia ingin hanya pecahan-pecahan.



Kelak kau tau jua.

Saturday, January 16, 2016

bergolak tak terkendali

kacau...
balau.....



seakan tiap detik akan bertabrakan.meledak bagai atom atom nuklir.kepalaku penuh dengan amarah.kebingungan.ada hal-hal yang membuat ingin marah.menangis.hati selalu berbisik ingin bunuh diri.logika menahan agar menangislah tapi jangan menyerah dan bunuh diri.aku hening dalam diam.jiwaku berteriak memohon ampun pada penat yang menyiksa.alunan-alunan simfoni kematian bagai mengiringi tiap-tiap hentakan nafas.aku mati di jiwa namun tidaklah raga.